From Diane Setterfield's The Thirteenth Tale
People disappear when they die. Their voices, their laughter, the warmth of their breath. Their flesh. Eventually their bones. All living mempry of them ceases. This is both dreadful and natural. Yet for some there is an exception to this annihilation. For in the books they write they continut to exist. We can rediscover them. Their humour, their tone of voice, their moods. Through the written word they can anger you or make you happy. They can comfort you. They can perplex you. They can alter you. All this, even though they are dead. Like flies in amber, like corpses frozen in ice, that which according to the laws of nature should pass away is, by the miracle of ink on paper, preserved. It is a kind of magic.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I almost have you conquered. Almost done... and the drawer slides are not right... and the putty is not putty-ing right... and the drawers are too big for the drawer cabinets... and MY DEADLINE IS TOMORROW!
I could be working on it right now but I'd rather write a blog while Scott gets a movie going. I can either meet or break my deadline tomorrow. We will know by the end of the day tomorrow.
In a few minutes:
Here are pictures of the project so far.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I'm feeling really, super anxious... something needs to change.
Should I blog more*...
Should I get those really cute cloth napkins to replace our paper ones**?
Should I tear my hair out because I:
a. maybe won't get my entryway project finished by my deadline^ even if I try
b. am losing good mothering points^^ because I'm putting said project ahead of the happiness of Jaedyn
Should I save money for a big trip***?
Should I go to bed now, or read a book, or watch a TV show with Scott?
Here is where I go running into the night, screaming.
*perhaps but I should probably really spend my time in real (not virtual) life.
**Well since our paper ones are from 'food' storage and I have not bought a roll in over a year and a half... I'm not going to really save money doing it...
***There is talk of the sister's taking a trip to Europe next spring but I have not even spoken with Tarah or Emma about it...
^My brother and his girlfriend and my dad are coming for a visit / camping. Miles leaves Afghanistan the 1st of September and he's coming pretty directly HERE. That's my deadline for making things look nice. Less than a week. Yikes! I have not even finished screwing things together. Much less puttying or painting!!
^^Scott grew up with this as the rule for outings: if you threw a fit, mom would leave the store right then and you could not come the next time she went out. If she was ALMOST done or JUST beginning it didn't matter. You act up, you leave. Scott remembers having a full cart of groceries taken to the manager of the store. His mom explained that she'd have to leave the groceries there and not buy them because her son was not acting appropriately in public.
It made an impression. We thought we'd adopt that rule.
Today Jaedyn threw a huge fit at Home Depot. To the point that clerks and other shoppers were giving me 'the look'. I should have left but I didn't until I had half the stuff on my list (I forgot the rest). She acted up, we should have left.
Monday, August 23, 2010
reading other people's blogs
commenting on a select few
organizing / cleaning
cooking ... I'm learning
washing dishes with gloves... to keep my hands pretty
reading book group books
reading for pleasure
reading to learn skills
I want to :
learn to run
oh, all right just get fit swimming, biking, dancing
possibly blogging... maybe
*interactive teaching and learning with Jaedyn (<- read preschool or just more quality time)
*eat healthier and remember to take vitamins etc
work with acrylics and embossing meduims
work on canvas
de-clutter and get rid of stuff (AH! I can't let go)
keep reading more book group and pleasure and skills stuff
go to school for design or architecture
There is only so much time in a day... I need to get organized. Maybe if I work on one something each day... hmm.
EDIT Christy hooked me up with Habitforge.com and I have added the starred items as habits to track. I'd add more but some are weekly things, like family history, it's a great Sunday afternoon activity. Some are monthly things, like book group reading. I sure hope this helps me get motivated to do the things I want to do.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I got over to Brian's parent's place about a week ago and finished with the wood. Then we brought it home so I can putty up the knots and sand out the rough patches*. I cut some pieces for a necklace hanger with th scraps and put it together today**. It did not turn out like I hoped. The wind has been let out of my sails a bit. I really hope I can make this entry way project. Without screwing it up***.
*We got the cheap pine with rough bits and knots. It ended up costing me about $200 less to do it this way and I like that. Less $ is good. Knots and scratchy bits are not so good, but it's worth it.
**There are screw holes EVERYWHERE and only some of them have actual screws in them... Others are pre-drill holes that were going the wrong direction. Of the holes that have screws some of the screws are poking out of the top and others are poking through the front of the wood^. It did make a nice sturdy frame^^.
*** Ha! that's a joke because it's held together with SCREWS!
^ You may or may not see pictures... I'm not in a showing off mood right now`.
^^I finally got the frame together and then ran out of sampler screws so I hammered the back into place. The sides fit so snug I may not have to screw them in. Well I will screw them in, but I don't have to. It's a pretty tight fit.
`I see these projects that other people do for their first wood working project and I'm amazed. Even more so when they do it in a day or whatever. HOW? Do they not have toddlers getting into everything? Do they have all the tools and space for building available? What am I missing?