From Diane Setterfield's The Thirteenth Tale
People disappear when they die. Their voices, their laughter, the warmth of their breath. Their flesh. Eventually their bones. All living mempry of them ceases. This is both dreadful and natural. Yet for some there is an exception to this annihilation. For in the books they write they continut to exist. We can rediscover them. Their humour, their tone of voice, their moods. Through the written word they can anger you or make you happy. They can comfort you. They can perplex you. They can alter you. All this, even though they are dead. Like flies in amber, like corpses frozen in ice, that which according to the laws of nature should pass away is, by the miracle of ink on paper, preserved. It is a kind of magic.
--Diane Setterfield
--Diane Setterfield
Monday, September 22, 2008
and more... COO!!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Names
We've pretty much settled on Jaedyn Olivia Quigley.
My backup name is Emma Hazel Quigley... I'm wishing and hoping and praying that we get two girls so I can use both names!
Oh, and a boy 'cauze I really like Nathanial Scott Quigley.
My backup name is Emma Hazel Quigley... I'm wishing and hoping and praying that we get two girls so I can use both names!
Oh, and a boy 'cauze I really like Nathanial Scott Quigley.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
We watched Alias for a while... and I learned about compartmentalizing. Now I recognize myself doing it a lot.
I am not so great at it as payed actors who are playacting the part of a fictional character... so it gets a little muddy. I go to work and let things from my home life affect my job performance or let office life carry over to the hours when I am home. This carryover is normal, I think. The part that is worrisome is when Church gets compartmentalized away from everything else. When that happens, I do it a little to well.
I guess the solution would be not to compartmentalize church from my home life... but, the little voice in my head says, my home life is sleeping and work life extends to Scott's work too because that's what I do... and how I can function best.
well, little voice in my head, maybe you should learn to be by yourself. Learn how to not be depressed.
ACK!It's impossible. I've tried. So there!
Ah, what's a girl with a very persuasive mind to do?!
I am not so great at it as payed actors who are playacting the part of a fictional character... so it gets a little muddy. I go to work and let things from my home life affect my job performance or let office life carry over to the hours when I am home. This carryover is normal, I think. The part that is worrisome is when Church gets compartmentalized away from everything else. When that happens, I do it a little to well.
I guess the solution would be not to compartmentalize church from my home life... but, the little voice in my head says, my home life is sleeping and work life extends to Scott's work too because that's what I do... and how I can function best.
well, little voice in my head, maybe you should learn to be by yourself. Learn how to not be depressed.
ACK!It's impossible. I've tried. So there!
Ah, what's a girl with a very persuasive mind to do?!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
beCAUSE
I wish I had a cause... I was looking at the website of one of the women I admire most. One of the families I admire most. They are just awesome!
She totally has a cause.
Then I was talking to a gal at work who has birthed a project, as she put it, and it was fun to see her enthusiasm. She has a cause.
I don't have anything I care enough about. I have many interests and hobbies, but no cause. I love to learn... but I'm not really putting any of it to use... *sigh*
I caught myself thinking that when I'm at home perhaps I'll find a cause. But honestly, I don't think I will. Gloria found a cause at work.. and if I can't find a cause in the environment that I spend the most time in.. I doubt that I will find one in an environment that I spend ALL my time in.
Perhaps I wish I had more support from Scott. I would totally be green if he didn't make fun of it/ that lifestyle.
Maybe I'm just mopey because I'm home alone.
Time to go purge / nest.
PS - We went to Wendy's the other day... I had forgotten how GOOD their fries are. I'm getting to be a fry connoisseur. I LOVE potatoes!!
She totally has a cause.
Then I was talking to a gal at work who has birthed a project, as she put it, and it was fun to see her enthusiasm. She has a cause.
I don't have anything I care enough about. I have many interests and hobbies, but no cause. I love to learn... but I'm not really putting any of it to use... *sigh*
I caught myself thinking that when I'm at home perhaps I'll find a cause. But honestly, I don't think I will. Gloria found a cause at work.. and if I can't find a cause in the environment that I spend the most time in.. I doubt that I will find one in an environment that I spend ALL my time in.
Perhaps I wish I had more support from Scott. I would totally be green if he didn't make fun of it/ that lifestyle.
Maybe I'm just mopey because I'm home alone.
Time to go purge / nest.
PS - We went to Wendy's the other day... I had forgotten how GOOD their fries are. I'm getting to be a fry connoisseur. I LOVE potatoes!!
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I'm such not that kind of rebel
Today we find out what "flavor" we are having. 9:30 is the appointment. We'll be there.
However... I had agreed to give Tara a ride to work this morning. She called a little before 8 for whatever reason and it's a good thing she did. I was still sleeping when the alarm went off and it sounded all wrong. It sounded more like my phone than the bedside alarm... it was. So when Tara was ready, I went to pick her up and take her to work. I left the house in my grubby sweats and the only t-shirt that I have kept long enough to actually get holes in it.
I totally got butterflies in my tummy leaving the house at the time appointed for being dressed and ready for work. I was NOT dressed and ready for work. But I was still going to work (in a manner of speaking). I felt like I was cheating the system. Like when we'd run accross the street to have lunch at Kourtney's house, even though our high school did not allow off campus lunches. OooOOoo! What a rebel!
However... I had agreed to give Tara a ride to work this morning. She called a little before 8 for whatever reason and it's a good thing she did. I was still sleeping when the alarm went off and it sounded all wrong. It sounded more like my phone than the bedside alarm... it was. So when Tara was ready, I went to pick her up and take her to work. I left the house in my grubby sweats and the only t-shirt that I have kept long enough to actually get holes in it.
I totally got butterflies in my tummy leaving the house at the time appointed for being dressed and ready for work. I was NOT dressed and ready for work. But I was still going to work (in a manner of speaking). I felt like I was cheating the system. Like when we'd run accross the street to have lunch at Kourtney's house, even though our high school did not allow off campus lunches. OooOOoo! What a rebel!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Work has been this crazy up and down of stress lately. Just when I think I have things a little under control, and the boss is out of the office the next day and I will be able to get caught up.. BAM something happens and I'm all sorts of behind.
Now to validate my complaint... I really like to be so on top of things that at the end of the day my desk is completely clean and I have nothing carring over to tomorrow. That does not happen. But currently, I am about... however long I've been at this new position... behind on like 3 projects. And now I'll lok dumb if I have to back and tell my trainer-person 'um, yeah can you tell me how to do this project again... I know you did the first week I started. But. I have not done anything with it. Ever.'
And I can sense some frustration from some of the managers I work with because of these projects that are not being completed... and I'm trying not not be frustrated with them because I cannot tell when my frustration is valid or when I'm off on some crazy pregnancy hormones. But honestly... cleaning the break room?! It's my job?! On top of all the real work I'm doing. p-shaw.
I've got two days ahead of me with less managers. However I spent a day and a half workingon their presentation... so I'm more behind now... and I'll be getting doctored one of the days everyone is gone. Sigh, and then I need to pick up the diaper care and feeding for another manager, who is very high maintantance. *sigh*
Now to validate my complaint... I really like to be so on top of things that at the end of the day my desk is completely clean and I have nothing carring over to tomorrow. That does not happen. But currently, I am about... however long I've been at this new position... behind on like 3 projects. And now I'll lok dumb if I have to back and tell my trainer-person 'um, yeah can you tell me how to do this project again... I know you did the first week I started. But. I have not done anything with it. Ever.'
And I can sense some frustration from some of the managers I work with because of these projects that are not being completed... and I'm trying not not be frustrated with them because I cannot tell when my frustration is valid or when I'm off on some crazy pregnancy hormones. But honestly... cleaning the break room?! It's my job?! On top of all the real work I'm doing. p-shaw.
I've got two days ahead of me with less managers. However I spent a day and a half workingon their presentation... so I'm more behind now... and I'll be getting doctored one of the days everyone is gone. Sigh, and then I need to pick up the diaper care and feeding for another manager, who is very high maintantance. *sigh*
Thursday, August 7, 2008
meat loaf I was in the mood for some meatloaf the other day. For more than one or two meal, so it musta been a real pregnancy craving. We sure don't have any meatloaf just sitting around the house, not the stuff or time to make it... So I thought I was outta luck. Then Scott suggested I try and find a restraunt that serves meatloaf. HA like anyone sells meatloaf. Oh, but they do! I got some at Cotton Patch. Everything that came with it was very yummy. THEN we went to the grocery store and their deli was having a sale on home style meatloaf. so now I am stocked! yeah for meatloaf!
... vampires...
shopping... Scott's mom took me shopping for fat person clothes...I mean maternity clothes. i got some cute things, and they fit and have room to grow. and we got some 'secret fit' bottoms... and although they sound like Victoria's Secret stuffs, it's actually just really comfortable belly band and the top of the pant. The one thing that is most uncomfortable now is my little diaphragm. It gets squished by the bands that fit over the belly, and I have a almost constant cramp under a right side of my ribs, right under the bottom of my bra. poor little diaphragm. But I'm still not a huge fan of shopping, and by day six of looking at websites with these ridiculously nice looking pregnant models, I was really really done.
"i missed you"... um and something else... asthma... Oh I need to go now, will flesh these out lata.
I was just telling James about my aha moment and it made me laugh to myself and so I thought I'd share:
We went to the store Saturday and got some coco butter, because I'm vain enough to not want stretch marks. and having just "popped" the need is becoming slightly more urgent to do some preventative work. (I have had stretch marks before, and I DON'T like them!)
Scott picked up some 100% all natural Coco Butter and had me smell it. He said "Mmm, smells chooocolatey." I didn't think anything of it, but he was right it did smell chocolaty. I guess I did wonder for a second how they could claim to be 100% natural if they infused a scent into the product. But who am I to question these important marketing things? Right?
Then I was reading the label.
hehe
and I read that it is made from the same plant as chocolate is made of...
giggle...
and I had no idea that they came from the same plant.
haha!
but now it makes sense
they didn't flavor the coco butter, duh!, it smells like that NATURALLY!
hahahah...
... vampires...
shopping... Scott's mom took me shopping for fat person clothes...I mean maternity clothes. i got some cute things, and they fit and have room to grow. and we got some 'secret fit' bottoms... and although they sound like Victoria's Secret stuffs, it's actually just really comfortable belly band and the top of the pant. The one thing that is most uncomfortable now is my little diaphragm. It gets squished by the bands that fit over the belly, and I have a almost constant cramp under a right side of my ribs, right under the bottom of my bra. poor little diaphragm. But I'm still not a huge fan of shopping, and by day six of looking at websites with these ridiculously nice looking pregnant models, I was really really done.
"i missed you"... um and something else... asthma... Oh I need to go now, will flesh these out lata.
I was just telling James about my aha moment and it made me laugh to myself and so I thought I'd share:
We went to the store Saturday and got some coco butter, because I'm vain enough to not want stretch marks. and having just "popped" the need is becoming slightly more urgent to do some preventative work. (I have had stretch marks before, and I DON'T like them!)
Scott picked up some 100% all natural Coco Butter and had me smell it. He said "Mmm, smells chooocolatey." I didn't think anything of it, but he was right it did smell chocolaty. I guess I did wonder for a second how they could claim to be 100% natural if they infused a scent into the product. But who am I to question these important marketing things? Right?
Then I was reading the label.
hehe
and I read that it is made from the same plant as chocolate is made of...
giggle...
and I had no idea that they came from the same plant.
haha!
but now it makes sense
they didn't flavor the coco butter, duh!, it smells like that NATURALLY!
hahahah...
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Big shout out to Janika for coming to the "Breaking Dawn" release and being all giddy and girly, *cough* I mean mature and grown up with me.
Pretty much the book is perfect. I almost didn't tell Scott what happens in a vain hope that he would be interested enough to read it himself. Alas, I caved. AND truth be told he never was more than mildly interested in weather or not I liked it. Not what happens, just if I liked it.
*sigh* Maybe one of these days.
I woke up from our Sunday afternoon nap (which is probably my very most favorite part of the week) and wanted to make things. I have clothes I was going to cut down to size so i can have button-ups that fit, and I want to make baby things. I am ready to be ready for my baby. Too bad I have 5+ months left until the little guy gets here.
I am also debating where to put the baby, in my head it's a boy, my favorite options right now are clearing out the walk-in closet and converting it into a baby room, or just putting everything in the front room. If I did the front room, we'd be closer to him, and actually utilizing the space. But it's so bright! So, we'll see.
Pretty much the book is perfect. I almost didn't tell Scott what happens in a vain hope that he would be interested enough to read it himself. Alas, I caved. AND truth be told he never was more than mildly interested in weather or not I liked it. Not what happens, just if I liked it.
*sigh* Maybe one of these days.
I woke up from our Sunday afternoon nap (which is probably my very most favorite part of the week) and wanted to make things. I have clothes I was going to cut down to size so i can have button-ups that fit, and I want to make baby things. I am ready to be ready for my baby. Too bad I have 5+ months left until the little guy gets here.
I am also debating where to put the baby, in my head it's a boy, my favorite options right now are clearing out the walk-in closet and converting it into a baby room, or just putting everything in the front room. If I did the front room, we'd be closer to him, and actually utilizing the space. But it's so bright! So, we'll see.
Monday, July 28, 2008
I have slept on a wide variety of pillows and positions in my life.
I got to the point that I really liked sleeping on a flat surface, ie no pillow, and I remember seeing commercials for mattresses and the actress would be curled up and using the actors arm as a pillow. It looked SO uncomfortable.
Then I moved on to big pillows. I would sleep on my side and have lots of support. Now when I watched those commercials, I could see how that would be comfortable. Granted all the actors had huge biceps. Mmm.
Then I got married. Um, Scott is fit, but not bulky like those actors. I was kinda worried to tell the truth!
But as cliche as it sounds, he fit's just right.
BUT now I have to sleep practically Upright. Now I can't use my human pillow. Nap times are nice, after church or whatever, because I don't get to a deep enough sleep to not breathe. So I can cuddle then.
I got to the point that I really liked sleeping on a flat surface, ie no pillow, and I remember seeing commercials for mattresses and the actress would be curled up and using the actors arm as a pillow. It looked SO uncomfortable.
Then I moved on to big pillows. I would sleep on my side and have lots of support. Now when I watched those commercials, I could see how that would be comfortable. Granted all the actors had huge biceps. Mmm.
Then I got married. Um, Scott is fit, but not bulky like those actors. I was kinda worried to tell the truth!
But as cliche as it sounds, he fit's just right.
BUT now I have to sleep practically Upright. Now I can't use my human pillow. Nap times are nice, after church or whatever, because I don't get to a deep enough sleep to not breathe. So I can cuddle then.
Friday, July 25, 2008
what a wonderful feeling!
Janika and Mike *forced* me to read Twilight.
Yesterday i was musing over how I felt about the book on my way to book club. I figured that since I didn't read the book for book club, I should at least think about A book on my way.
This is the summation of my musing:
I love it! I enjoy the books (it's a series of four, the fourth book will come out next month)more than I have enjoyed a book since 7th grade.
In 7th grade Becca Suter lent me a book she was reading. I loved this book so much I went out and bought it for myself. Twice. The book is "Beauty" by Robin McKinley. ( for years I didn't know she wrote other books... but last year when I did find out, I gobbled up a lot of them. So far my other favorite is Deerskin.)
I'm not SURE what makes these books so precious to me, but for years and years (until I was married actually)"Beauty" was my most favorite book. I could go on and on about what happened and why it was not so ... enchanting to me, but I'm cooking mac and cheese and I only have a hour break for lunch... Somehow after I was married, the magic fell out. I could read it, but I was not discovering a new facet of the story each time I did. It was like th book suddenly went 2-D.... that's the best explanation I can give right now.
But these "Twilight" books have that magic that "Beauty" once had. It's AMAZING! I didn't realize HOW MUCH I missed that magic. It's the kind that doesn't leave when I put the book down... the kind that stays with me and keeps me dreamy all day. It's such a release. My other favorite books are favorites for different reasons. "Jane Eyre" is a favorite because It actually made me laugh out loud and cry out loud as I was reading it. Amazing. I've never done that before.
I do remember a Sesamie Street episode where Maria and elmo are reading library books and laughing and crying because of the pictures. I thought they were wierd, but after reading "jane Eyre" I feel right on the level with a three year old monster and a much older actress. :P
notes to self: Please come back and edit this!
Read that book club book and the one about food and where it comes from... Allison Seer has the titles.
Yesterday i was musing over how I felt about the book on my way to book club. I figured that since I didn't read the book for book club, I should at least think about A book on my way.
This is the summation of my musing:
I love it! I enjoy the books (it's a series of four, the fourth book will come out next month)more than I have enjoyed a book since 7th grade.
In 7th grade Becca Suter lent me a book she was reading. I loved this book so much I went out and bought it for myself. Twice. The book is "Beauty" by Robin McKinley. ( for years I didn't know she wrote other books... but last year when I did find out, I gobbled up a lot of them. So far my other favorite is Deerskin.)
I'm not SURE what makes these books so precious to me, but for years and years (until I was married actually)"Beauty" was my most favorite book. I could go on and on about what happened and why it was not so ... enchanting to me, but I'm cooking mac and cheese and I only have a hour break for lunch... Somehow after I was married, the magic fell out. I could read it, but I was not discovering a new facet of the story each time I did. It was like th book suddenly went 2-D.... that's the best explanation I can give right now.
But these "Twilight" books have that magic that "Beauty" once had. It's AMAZING! I didn't realize HOW MUCH I missed that magic. It's the kind that doesn't leave when I put the book down... the kind that stays with me and keeps me dreamy all day. It's such a release. My other favorite books are favorites for different reasons. "Jane Eyre" is a favorite because It actually made me laugh out loud and cry out loud as I was reading it. Amazing. I've never done that before.
I do remember a Sesamie Street episode where Maria and elmo are reading library books and laughing and crying because of the pictures. I thought they were wierd, but after reading "jane Eyre" I feel right on the level with a three year old monster and a much older actress. :P
notes to self: Please come back and edit this!
Read that book club book and the one about food and where it comes from... Allison Seer has the titles.
I wonder...
if people assume that because I'm not bossy, that I can't take care of things. That would explain a lot!!!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Belly pictures - 15 weeks
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I'm having a really really hard time taking my prenatals. My ObGyn gave me some really good ones. I take one in the morning and one at night. They taste like vanilla and although they are horse pills... It's just two pills a day ( I had been taking 8 horse pills a day before Dr. Maxi intervened...)But I can't seem to do it. I was really good with other medications. I know how important these are.
Here is an example: I sat at the computer with a fruit bar and my pills. I pipped a pill out and ate it with a bite of fruit bar... My throat is dry and sticky from sinus drainage and is ever worse in the morning... so it stuck a little going down, but I just took another bite of frozen fruit and let it melt until it had all gone to my hungry little tummy. Then I finished with the computer and went to pick up me trash and clean or somethig... but the pill was still there!! I had never eaten it!
This is getting insane! Does anyone have a suggestion?!
Here is an example: I sat at the computer with a fruit bar and my pills. I pipped a pill out and ate it with a bite of fruit bar... My throat is dry and sticky from sinus drainage and is ever worse in the morning... so it stuck a little going down, but I just took another bite of frozen fruit and let it melt until it had all gone to my hungry little tummy. Then I finished with the computer and went to pick up me trash and clean or somethig... but the pill was still there!! I had never eaten it!
This is getting insane! Does anyone have a suggestion?!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
This time you get to tag yourself!
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.
It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.
It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
New Job... Yea!
I have the opportunity to move upstairs and work for the ROC (Regional Operations Center)... and I'm excited. Hopefully I will be a thousand times less stressed!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
vacation pictures
Day five (we're going backwards)was a busy day. In the morning was Greyson's 7th birthday party. His actual birthday is on the 16th. Then we went to the Market and visited the bug museum. It was SO COOL!! I will have to post more pictures of the bugs and spiders. They practically had to drag me out. Then we took a 'cruise' around the sound.





Day four we went crabbing. Twice. During the day we didn't catch anything but we did FEED A WILD SEAL!!!! We came back that night and caught a 5" crab... so we had to throw it back. We fed seagulls and I got some fun videos of that, but I'm doing pictures this go round. Not videos.


Day three we went to see a juggler in the park in the morning and then spent the rest of the day with the Hanson's. Pictures is Jacob, their cute little tyke.


Day two at the Zoo. In the Butterfly Exhibit we watched live butterflies and moths hatch from their crystalists!! Greyson and I saw the black bears, and pulled apart a flower to see what it looked like before it opens. It was a science-y day and I loved it! After, we went to Dick's burger place and ate at that cool park made from an old factory.

Day one at the Bowling Alley. Aidan and I made quite the team. I threw balls into the gutter with gusto when he was not holding my hand... my center of gravity was off by about 3.5 years.

Day four we went crabbing. Twice. During the day we didn't catch anything but we did FEED A WILD SEAL!!!! We came back that night and caught a 5" crab... so we had to throw it back. We fed seagulls and I got some fun videos of that, but I'm doing pictures this go round. Not videos.
Day three we went to see a juggler in the park in the morning and then spent the rest of the day with the Hanson's. Pictures is Jacob, their cute little tyke.
Day two at the Zoo. In the Butterfly Exhibit we watched live butterflies and moths hatch from their crystalists!! Greyson and I saw the black bears, and pulled apart a flower to see what it looked like before it opens. It was a science-y day and I loved it! After, we went to Dick's burger place and ate at that cool park made from an old factory.
Day one at the Bowling Alley. Aidan and I made quite the team. I threw balls into the gutter with gusto when he was not holding my hand... my center of gravity was off by about 3.5 years.
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